oh hiya,

I started brutalrecovery on instagram in 2018 when I was about 9 months sober, still an absolute mess, and wondered where the content was for people who were absolutely doing their best but still struggled to brush their teeth twice a day. it was a different internet back then, and you were either sober, perfect, pure and drinking smoothies, or a drunk mess.

I wanted to make posts for people who were sober, trying to be sober, in an out of being sober, had different modalities of recovery, were curious about recovery, wanted to understand people in recovery or who just related to the huge, human feelings that all humans have. and I’m still doing that, because sober isn’t a destination - it’s one of the many methods you can use to sort your shit out (one I need, because I’m a scottish sober alcoholic with a life I don’t want to run away from now).

I write about that, my recovery from cptsd, eating disorders, cutting - and all the other stuff, like living a life worth living after everything, creating a life you can belong in, realising all that really matters is the giving and receiving of love, and taking a hit when the struggles of life happen, but not being taken under.

so what’s going on here

I’m going to upload weekly here, brutal reflections of the life and times of a former lost cause who now lives a pretty joyful life. there will also be a free newsletter every month for free subscribers.

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